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Table of Contents

Index of a Selection of Poems
Pain

Deliverance

Losing it

My Dad

The Lake

PinWheel

“Pain”

 

Pain, what can I do,

Pain, like a drill through the brain,

Can’t think, can’t talk,

Pain,

 

All for nothing, help me, please,

Relieve this tormented soul inside of me,

Can’t take much more,

Pain,

 

Every day, every night,

I can’t escape it,

But I can, if only for a little while,

Pain,

 

Release from its viselike grip,

Please, please, please,

No pain.

               

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“Deliverance”

 

As I look out across this place,

My mind drifts back through time and space,

To a different time,

When I belonged to a different mind,

 

What was going through my brain at that time?

I will never know,

It has been knocked out of me,

And time will show,

If it’s for the best,

I don’t know,

 

New light shines down on me today,

Because I have learned to pray,

To ask for what is rightfully mine,

It is not a crime,

I must remember that I am in control,

And not be afraid to take what is mine,

 

I guess time will tell,

If I have it in me,

But right now I need,

Some time with the new me.

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“Losing It”

 

Am I losing it?

What is wrong with me?

I look around and what do I see,

Someone that is strange and unfamiliar,

Looking back at me,

This person actually scares me,

Is capable of anything,

I mean anything,

 

Until now, I am able to control him,

I don’t know how long this will last,

Before I get knocked on my ass,

Then he takes over and all hell breaks loose,

All hell will break loose,

 

Am I losing it?

What is wrong with me?

I am looking at myself and I don’t see me,

 

I will lose what I tried hard to build up,

Just like a broken cup,

That is shattered into many pieces,

Each one very different in shape, size, and thickness,

All wanting to be what they were before,

Knowing full well it is to be no more,

 

Am I losing it?

What is wrong with me?

I am looking at myself and I don’t see me,

 

If I can control him a little longer,

I think I can conquer,

The anger that is taking over my brain,

I hope that I will not go insane,

Even worse,

Hurt someone I care for,

I hope I will not go through that door,

Because I have been there before,

Been down that road where anger consumed me,

Remembering what I did to those who loved me,

 

Am I losing it?

What is wrong with me?

I am looking at myself and I don’t see me,

 

It getting harder to control the feelings inside of me,

I am afraid that someone will provoke me,

Tempt me,

Then it happens in a blink of an eye,

I forget that life matters and I don’t wonder why,

These feelings are coming out,

Why must you shout?

Is it just to provoke me?

To set the monster free,

 

Continue what you’re are doing,

And you will see,

The anger that has consumed me,

It is not pretty in any way,

I battle that anger to this day,

 

 

Am I losing it?

What is wrong with me?

I am looking at myself and I don’t see me.

 

 

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“My Dad” by Tamara Budgell

 

My Dad is the bestest best dad in the world,

He likes crispy chocolate and pizza too,

Fish and chicken, just to name a few,

He likes sports,

He used to have warts,

He likes to play with me and take me places too,

Shopping, swimming, fishing too,

 

 

Rowing boats and paddling canoes,

Food courts and stores,

From water slides to hot tubs,

That’s why my Dad is the best dad in the world.

 

He has also taught me many lessons,

How to write poems,

How to fish,

He’s taught me,

How to drive cars, quads, and trucks,

That’s some of the lessons my dad has taught me.

 

   

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“The Lake”

 

Life at the lake,

Really changed my life,

That I can say for sure,

A lot of things have happened to me,

And there will be more,

 

I did not see what people were like,

Until I moved here,

But dealing with all these people,

Have made things a lot clearer,

 

People from all over the world,

Have passed through my gate,

Altered every aspect of my life,

And also changed my fate,

 

Seen things that were just not right,

Things that should not be,

But I had to see these things,

It was meant to be,

 

If I had chosen a different road,

Or went another way,

I would not know what I know now,

Or be where I am today,

 

But when it is all said and done,

The lake will always be with me,

The peaceful serenity made me think,

The thinking set me free.

 

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“Pinwheel”

 

Red, Yellow, Blue and Green,

Round and round and round,

Forever turning,

Until the wind stops,

 

Life is like a pinwheel,

We keep moving as long,

As we have something,

To push us,

 

But if there is,

Nothing behind us,

We seem to stop,

And do nothing,

 

This is very destructive,

It rots the mind,

The person and everyone,

Who comes into contact with it,

 

But give us a little help,

And see what can be done,

Things can change for the better,

Round and round and round.

 

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